Wednesday, February 29, 2012

PLEASE let this happen!

I've really struggled with the baby sleep deprivation and being invited to dinners (with ribs and cake and potatoes) and neighbors bringing over cookies and lemon pound cake (YUM) and eating to deal with my stress.

So after a month of the scale not budging at ALL, I am DONE. DONEDONEDONE. I have to lose these 18 pounds!! I have to! NONE of my clothes fit - and I have some seriously cute clothes.

Here is what eating healthy for a week with a family of 6 looks like:

All that cost $75. That is SO much more than I usually pay for groceries. For a WEEK. I'm used to hanging around $30 or so. But here in our new place with much less competition, there just aren't as many sales. And milk kills me here. $4/gallon?? ouch.

But I made it with no desserts yesterday and ate really well. I've started today off well too, and I'm hoping I can hang in there until at least the end of march. I would LOVE to weigh 130 pounds by the end of march.

I started yesterday running every day. That's not something that I normally do, but I really need to work out in the morning to start the day off right. It's too dark to bike that early, and I'm just not in enough shape to do long distances right now. so I'm trying to do 2.25 miles every morning with biking at least once a week and a sculpting video 3 days a week. I feel so weak while I'm running. SO. WEAK. How long will it take me to start feeling strong again?

At least I have a house full of veggies and fruits to eat. I forgot how delicious pears were. nom nom.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

24 hours down...

I did it!!!!!

I made it an ENTIRE DAY with no sweets!!!!!

Even though a neighbor came over with this massive plate of homemade chocolate chip cookies to introduce herself and welcome us to the neighborhood. And they sat on the counter mocking me. I stuck those puppies in the freezer for my weekly cheat day. (monday)

I can do this!! I can lose the weight!!!

Tuesday, February 21, 2012

crashing and burning.

This is really rough. Who knew that moving across the country with a newborn, unpacking a house while nursing a newborn, and being supportive as my husband starts a new job and works on his masters degree would be so stressful. You know what I do to deal with assorted frustrations? I turn to food. Of the bread variety. As I type this, I've held my baby for 4 hours today and he just barely fell asleep. My 2 year old is screaming in his room and just woke up the baby so now they are both crying. My 7 year old is trying to do her homework and loses all her reading books and pencils EVERY. DAY. My 5 year old won't eat dinner and is harassing my 7 year old. I'm about to lose it. No wonder I turn to food for solace.

And I'm seriously lacking in sleep. For a person who needs 9-10.5 hours of sleep on a normal night, getting a total of 6 or 7 broken up into 3 or 4 different segments is just not cutting it. How do I stay awake during the day? Sugar. Of the candy and baked goods variety.

This means that the scale has not budged in the last 3 weeks. My clothes fit the same. I still have back fat. And I need an intervention.

I'm thinking something vegetarian inspired. And I'm not allowed to go to the store. Because when I go to the store, I buy candy. every. time. So I need to eat a large meal, go to the store to stock up on vegetarian items. Lots of beans, veggies, and fruits. And then not go back for at least a week.

At least eating cookies is better than killing your kids. right?

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Hanging in NC

First, I know this is late because I didn't have internet, but I did a nice 2.25 mile treadmill run in honor of Sherry that was hosted by SUAR.

In other Virtual running news, I'm FAMOUS!! Check me out at The Boring Runner.

Okay, my family just moved across the country to North Carolina and we are in a pretty small town.  I need to find some new running routes!

(obviously still have 15 pounds to lose)

Here are some homes on the loop I did.

Running right by the river.

Imagine how gorgeous in the summer when the trees and grass is all green!

See my house? It's kind of in the center of the shot to the right of the power line.

Told you it was small. I think my little town has 600 people in it.
I was stopped a mile into the run to be welcomed by a guy in a truck, he wanted to welcome me to the neighborhood. I could get used to this!

Monday, February 13, 2012

Real Food Challenge

For 10 days, I am going to be consuming nothing but REAL food. The rules are HERE.

I am doing this in an effort get stop snacking so much and eating garbage. I wanted to start it earlier, but with our cross country move and a new baby and selling the house, etc. It was just too much at once.

SO, from February 19 - February 29, I will be only eating REAL, unprocessed food. I'm interested to see what happens with my body, how I feel, etc.

Join me, won't you?

Friday, February 3, 2012


Today I weighed in at 139.8.

No wonder none of my clothes are looser.

No wonder I have tummy fat still.

18 pounds to lose.

As of right now. NOW. I am done with the sweets. I am going cold turkey. NO candy, dessert, etc. until next Thursday (because that's when we are moving and I might need some candy to keep me awake for the 3 day trip across the country.)

Here we go...