Monday, May 23, 2011

I crave pain.

My eyes are burning.

I have cried 4 times since I woke up this morning and although I have already run today, I am craving a crazy hard workout.

I want to go for a run and go so fast that my body screams in protest. I want the physical pain to overwhelm me and block out the emotional pain. I want a tangible hurt so the intangible hurt seems small in comparison. I want it to be so hard that I puke and my muscles cramp up. I need a serious endorphin overload.

Anyone want to join me??

1 comment:

d.a.r. said...

I'm sorry for whatever is going on...it sounds awful. But, I cope with things the same way...hope you can "work it out".